Turning A Corner?

I just may have turned a corner. I lost my best female friend this week. No, she didn't die, but after months of not returning my phone calls, she deleted me and the rest of my family from her Facebook.... OUCH!!! NOTHING is more final than that!

The night it happened, I decided to deal with my emotions by having a vigorous workout at the gym. I worked out but still, I felt no better. I had to go to the dreaded Wal-Mart for bread and of course... I had to pass by the cakes to get to the bread. Bought a mini-cheesecake and two pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Luckily, the cheesecake came with a mini-fork and I was able to eat it in the car. You know, that way nobody will know.

Anyway, feeling even more disgusted at myself and my weakness, I set myself up to jump off of the Wilson Dam. There appears to be nowhere to jump from, so I stood on the dam for an hour or so crying. Honestly, I know I am difficult to love but it seems that everyone leaves and of course, they never offer an explanation. I am so sick of being abandoned!

Anyway, I do have a point, I promise.

I was still down in the dumps today until I saw a video about a motivational speaker who has no arms or legs. He does EVERYTHING!! He dives from the high-dive, rides in fast boats, does so much and has no fear! He could feel sorry for himself, but he doesn't. He has made his life worth living... he found his niche.

Now inspired, I must find mine.