Hmmm... Interesting...

So, my family thinks my perspective of our family dynamic is all in my imagination. I find this very interesting as the entire situation is one of them vs. me. My husband and the three daughters still living at home conspire together, leaving me out of any planning-- basically they don't want my input; and then are surprised when I am less than thrilled with their idea. I am so very tired of not feeling like a part of the family. I have tried everything I know to be part of it. I am simply not wanted. Not a feeling I like, but the feeling I have lived with all of my life. Maybe there really is more wrong with me than I think. Maybe they don't mean to come off as not wanting me around. That is entirely possible, but nobody wants to take a few seconds and look at how the situation looks from my perspective.
I honestly don't know what to do anymore; except the obvious. In reality, I would be doing everyone a great service.

A Simple Start

This was the best weekend I've had in months. I am ahead of schedule in regard to school assignments, haven't cried all weekend and walked a little and tried to run for the first time in roughly 5 years. If I continue around this corner I've turned, it will only be a short amount of time before I die of a heart attack. So, tonight I ate 3 ounces of broiled salmon and steamed broccoli and cauliflower. The salmon turned out well, about 15 minutes before putting it in the oven to broil, I sprinkled it lightly with pepper, onion powder, garlic salt and dill. Broiled it for roughly 5 minutes and it turned out very moist and tasty.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day. I have an appointment with the psychiatrist scheduled, but I will have to put it off. Isn't such a bad idea as other than refilling my meds, he doesn't do much. Please, if anyone is following this and I hope you are... think good thoughts for me. I will do the same for you.